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For starters, I'm a conservative, evangelical, Protestant Christian.

I used to attend a Pentecostal church for a few months before school started, and since then my parents forbade me to step into any Christian setting at all.

Since there are just 2 hours of school on Fridays, I spend my Friday afternoons and evenings in the church youth room, doing homework, since the air-con isn't brutally cold like the studio in school, and there are my church friends and younger ones to talk to. This I did not tell my parents, though they allowed my to hang with my church friends.

Now, on one recent Friday (21st November), I decided to head to a service that evening, since I have not stepped into one for quite some time. I enjoyed praise and worship. But the sermon bothered me.

The pastor quoted Acts 2:2 and claimed that the Holy Spirit blew loudly during his services and revival meetings, terrifying believers and unbelievers alike, whether indoors or outdoor spaces surrounded by skyscrapers.

The second alarm bell went off after a video showing two children being 'slain in the spirit' after publicly accepting Jesus into their lives.

Now, I can't thank God enough (in fact, I thank profusely) for how He used parental objection in a way to raise me in a Christian setting that does not put denomination into factor, teaching the Word of God as the ultimate authority over any teacher. Preachers and pastors can quote certain chapters to support their stance, but have you heard of something called "out of context" or "cross reference"? It is due to me growing in Campus Crusade of Christ (now renamed Cru) that I start to question things taught by the Pentecostal church I used to attend. After all, I just want to walk in the light and keep away from anything not bible-sound, lest I displease God. The body of a believer houses the Holy Spirit and is a sacrifice for Godly worship. To do everything in His Glory.

But sometimes Pentecostal churches put uneeded, extra emphasis on feelings and personal experience.

Two weeks ago, I felt compelled to head to another church (some Charismatic influences) as a fellow Crusader offered to bring me there. The teachings are more in line with what Cru Singapore teaches, but I lack familiar faces for comfort, and I missed the spontaneity of Pentecostal worship. After all, I tried heading to a different church on my own to find a church family to settle in, and it didn't work well. I'm a wee bit on the introverted side, unable to hold conversations for long.

The prospect of lying to my parents about going to church, or telling them my longing to go to a church, scares me. Tightened curfews, limited pocket money and loss of trust are some of the scenarios that play in my head. I would have to tell my parents about my involvement in Cru and the times I went to services in secret, not to mention my afternoons in the youth room.

Though going to another church doesn't mean I can't spend my afternoons in the youth room, which is a place I like to work at and socialise with my friends.

Should I leave my current church? I have been praying over it.
  • Mood: Doubtful
The Word is the ultimate authority. Last night I had painful thoughts, but now I have searched my motives.
Cosplaying at first glance doesn't glorify God. But it is a joy to exercise the gift of craftsmanship and wear it.
Though I find it enjoyable, I prefer reading, drawing, and music more, and after my first cos I have no plans to make a new one.
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Your Grace is Enough
It is a heartache to realise that walking around in costume is pleasing to the self. I can't serve two masters. Anything pleasing to the self is not pleasing to God.

Yet a friend of mom did my self-designed costume for free. Tailored to my tiny measurements, to give it away (maybe even to an unbeliever) is to put a stumbling block, or to act contrary to Christ-like behaviour; to discard it is to trash the work of someone who was willing and kind enough to not charge me for it. And keeping it in the closet only collects dust and would only prompt my father to nag at me.

Yesterday and today I prayed. But still I lament. How can those people in Acts burn their spellbooks?

It is also a heartache to realise that I have spent money on my white wig and wigcare. A total of maybe S$60?

I only received Christ this year. At the mention of quiet time and my longing to go to church (my parents forbade me to), the reaction from a classmate is surprise (she's raised in a Christian home). She used the word "devoted." But as a child of God, this is because I want to spend more time with Him who gives me joy. Though I find it harder to do so because of my family's disapproval of my newfound faith, and temptations from left, right, and centre.

She spends quite some time on cosplay, para para, Pokemon, and J-pop culture. This is what I see in classmates that are raised in Christian homes.
Yet at the mention of quiet time and church, she used the word "devoted".

I thought wearing a costume would be innocent enough, as I have acted small roles in plays, and a cat is one of them. I put on cat ears, a tail, arm and leg warmers, and face paint to be a cat. And when I see a cosplayer, I not only see a familiar character, I see ingenuity and craftsmanship.

But then a sister in Christ pointed out that the evil one pretends to be an angel dressed in light.

God, what should I do?

UPDATE: I talked to her for a while today, and I don't know if talking to her would make me change my mind and therefore my stance about cosplay, but she cosplayed for quite some time and does not make cosplay an idol. She said she still gives God the glory for cosplay, as it is a joy for her to create the costumes and wear her creations. That was how I felt about cosplay before :iconthe1enchantress: talked to me about donning on any costume at all. Now I'm not sure if I should talk to that friend at all.

God is the best counsellor, but how He speaks to me I don’t know. Therefore I have sought Campus Crusade seniors for godly advice. But so far even though they find that there are good points in what The1Enchantress has to say, they never told me outright to drop cosplay.

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Your Grace is Enough
For starters, I'm a conservative, evangelical, Protestant Christian.

I used to attend a Pentecostal church for a few months before school started, and since then my parents forbade me to step into any Christian setting at all.

Since there are just 2 hours of school on Fridays, I spend my Friday afternoons and evenings in the church youth room, doing homework, since the air-con isn't brutally cold like the studio in school, and there are my church friends and younger ones to talk to. This I did not tell my parents, though they allowed my to hang with my church friends.

Now, on one recent Friday (21st November), I decided to head to a service that evening, since I have not stepped into one for quite some time. I enjoyed praise and worship. But the sermon bothered me.

The pastor quoted Acts 2:2 and claimed that the Holy Spirit blew loudly during his services and revival meetings, terrifying believers and unbelievers alike, whether indoors or outdoor spaces surrounded by skyscrapers.

The second alarm bell went off after a video showing two children being 'slain in the spirit' after publicly accepting Jesus into their lives.

Now, I can't thank God enough (in fact, I thank profusely) for how He used parental objection in a way to raise me in a Christian setting that does not put denomination into factor, teaching the Word of God as the ultimate authority over any teacher. Preachers and pastors can quote certain chapters to support their stance, but have you heard of something called "out of context" or "cross reference"? It is due to me growing in Campus Crusade of Christ (now renamed Cru) that I start to question things taught by the Pentecostal church I used to attend. After all, I just want to walk in the light and keep away from anything not bible-sound, lest I displease God. The body of a believer houses the Holy Spirit and is a sacrifice for Godly worship. To do everything in His Glory.

But sometimes Pentecostal churches put uneeded, extra emphasis on feelings and personal experience.

Two weeks ago, I felt compelled to head to another church (some Charismatic influences) as a fellow Crusader offered to bring me there. The teachings are more in line with what Cru Singapore teaches, but I lack familiar faces for comfort, and I missed the spontaneity of Pentecostal worship. After all, I tried heading to a different church on my own to find a church family to settle in, and it didn't work well. I'm a wee bit on the introverted side, unable to hold conversations for long.

The prospect of lying to my parents about going to church, or telling them my longing to go to a church, scares me. Tightened curfews, limited pocket money and loss of trust are some of the scenarios that play in my head. I would have to tell my parents about my involvement in Cru and the times I went to services in secret, not to mention my afternoons in the youth room.

Though going to another church doesn't mean I can't spend my afternoons in the youth room, which is a place I like to work at and socialise with my friends.

Should I leave my current church? I have been praying over it.
  • Mood: Doubtful

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