God is the best counsellor, but how He speaks to me I don’t know. Therefore I have sought Campus Crusade seniors for godly advice. But so far even though they find that there are good points in what The1Enchantress has to say, they never told me outright to drop cosplay.
For starters, I'm a conservative, evangelical, Protestant Christian.
I used to attend a Pentecostal church for a few months before school started, and since then my parents forbade me to step into any Christian setting at all.
Since there are just 2 hours of school on Fridays, I spend my Friday afternoons and evenings in the church youth room, doing homework, since the air-con isn't brutally cold like the studio in school, and there are my church friends and younger ones to talk to. This I did not tell my parents, though they allowed my to hang with my church friends.
Now, on one recent Friday (21st November), I decided to head to a service that evening, since I have not stepped into one for quite some time. I enjoyed praise and worship. But the sermon bothered me.
The pastor quoted Acts 2:2 and claimed that the Holy Spirit blew loudly during his services and revival meetings, terrifying believers and unbelievers alike, whether indoors or outdoor spaces surrounded by skyscrapers.
The second alarm bell went off after a video showing two children being 'slain in the spirit' after publicly accepting Jesus into their lives.
Now, I can't thank God enough (in fact, I thank profusely) for how He used parental objection in a way to raise me in a Christian setting that does not put denomination into factor, teaching the Word of God as the ultimate authority over any teacher. Preachers and pastors can quote certain chapters to support their stance, but have you heard of something called "out of context" or "cross reference"? It is due to me growing in Campus Crusade of Christ (now renamed Cru) that I start to question things taught by the Pentecostal church I used to attend. After all, I just want to walk in the light and keep away from anything not bible-sound, lest I displease God. The body of a believer houses the Holy Spirit and is a sacrifice for Godly worship. To do everything in His Glory.
But sometimes Pentecostal churches put uneeded, extra emphasis on feelings and personal experience.
Two weeks ago, I felt compelled to head to another church (some Charismatic influences) as a fellow Crusader offered to bring me there. The teachings are more in line with what Cru Singapore teaches, but I lack familiar faces for comfort, and I missed the spontaneity of Pentecostal worship. After all, I tried heading to a different church on my own to find a church family to settle in, and it didn't work well. I'm a wee bit on the introverted side, unable to hold conversations for long.
The prospect of lying to my parents about going to church, or telling them my longing to go to a church, scares me. Tightened curfews, limited pocket money and loss of trust are some of the scenarios that play in my head. I would have to tell my parents about my involvement in Cru and the times I went to services in secret, not to mention my afternoons in the youth room.
Though going to another church doesn't mean I can't spend my afternoons in the youth room, which is a place I like to work at and socialise with my friends.
Should I leave my current church? I have been praying over it.